Semper Paratus (mostly)
Semper Paratus (mostly)
  1. There are so many things about you that should stop me from liking you.

    So many usual turn-offs. 

    So many things that have been deal breakers in the past.

    Why do I like you so much??

  2. I just want to know everything about you.

    I want to kiss your smile, and feel your skin against mine.

    I want your breath against my neck, and our fingers laced together.

    I’m trying so hard to believe in the possibility, but I have no idea how you could like me. You’re so woah and I’m just me. 

  3. I just want to know you.

    I just want to hold your hand and do things to make you smile because your smile is one of the nicest things I’ve ever seen.

    I just want to take long autumn walks and bump my shoulder against your side and talk about absolutely nothing because I just love the sound of your voice and I find you 

    infinitely

    endlessly

    facinating. 

    I’ve never had this problem before. Feelings usually accompanying knowing someone. I don’t know you very well but god do I want to. Every detail I find out leaves me liking you even more, and wanting to know more about you. Even if you can’t return the feelings 

    (why would you?)

    I just want to be a part of your life.

  4. I feel like I don’t know him well enough to like him as much as I do. But the thing is that I find him endlessly fascinating, and I don’t know how he feels about me, but talking to him just makes me feel good and really that’s enough for now. 

  5. I think this is the first time in my life I’ve ever felt like “confident” could begin to be used to describe me. It’s one a.m., I’m in my pajamas with messy hair and smudged makeup, and I think I look pretty cute. I don’t know how I got here but I’m proud.

    I think this is the first time in my life I’ve ever felt like “confident” could begin to be used to describe me. It’s one a.m., I’m in my pajamas with messy hair and smudged makeup, and I think I look pretty cute. I don’t know how I got here but I’m proud.

  6. I had two people text me today asking if I was around to talk because they were having anxiety and didn’t know who else they could talk to. You have no idea how happy that makes me. I’m so extremely grateful and proud to be someone that people think they can rely on for something so personal. 

  7. How many times should you unsuccessfully attempt to flirt with someone before conceding that they probably aren’t interested and giving up? 

  8. I’ve been feeling really confident lately /knocks on wood.

    I don’t know if it’s just from faking it, and it rubbing off, or what, but I’m so not complaining.

  9. I am a naturally flirty person, but it’s usually in a joking way. That being said, I don’t know how to make it clear when I’m ACTUALLY flirting with someone. I feel like no one takes me seriously. I don’t know how to fix it. Ugh. 

    Struggle. 

  10. How dost one go about the casual sex thing? 

    I’ve done friends-with-benefits before, but never on purpose. That’s the kind of thing I’ve always just stumbled into. Like, suddenly there’s kissing and nudity and wow I’m so okay with this. I’ve never had to do the planning out and pursuing part before and it’s got me all nervous.

    I’ve got a target boy. Just need a plan, then the mission is a go.

    //buys all the secret agent things from the toy aisle 

  11. Reasons Why We're Best Friends..
    • Him: *hits me with door*
    • Me: *pouts* Why are you so mean to me?
    • Him: Well, that's how we work. I'm the only one who can hurt you, and you're the only one who can make me better.
  12. I’m just so angry.

    I remember, for years I didn’t know how to be angry. I should have let that be because now that I’ve found it, it hits me all the time. And it’s still just at myself for most of it. 

  13. Funny. Every time

    I think I’m doing better. 

    Turns out that I’m not. 

  14. I went to the Renaissance Faire in Tuxedo Park, NY today with three of my favorite boys. I’d never been to the Ren Faire before. It was phenomenal.

  15. Actual lumberjack princess. 
Self confidence at 3000% today (for once) so hey look at my face. 

    Actual lumberjack princess. 

    Self confidence at 3000% today (for once) so hey look at my face. 

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